I woke up on the wrong side of the bed today. It was 6am. I rolled out, trudged down the stairs, and started making espresso. I’d had a rough night of restless legs and a restless mind, which had me falling asleep somewhere between one and two in the morning. I wasn’t happy. In that moment, a strong latte was my only hope.
Espresso made. Trudged back up the stairs and into my office, where I flopped down and put my attention on my next priority, my gratitude journal. Each morning, I write down three things I’m currently grateful for and then focus on them for a few minutes. Today, this was the last thing I felt like doing but, like magic, three things appeared from the tip of my pen looking like this:
My Free Will
Love in my Life
“My Free Will.” A little reminder that I am responsible for my actions and my attitude, especially when I’m feeling like a sleepless grumpy-butt.
My commitment (to myself) to get up at 6am came directly out of “My Free Will” to start my day with some self-care (Let’s have a little self-accountability here, Karen!🙂).
No one is making me get up at 6am. I am choosing to do so.
So, more often than I like, I have sleepless nights. I can’t control those nights. What I can control is how I’m going to respond to a sleepless night. I can react and take my victimhood out on others…essentially punishing them for my circumstances. Or I can take accountability for and be responsible for my attitude and behavior and not make others responsible for my tired grumpy-butt.
I try to start my day on the right foot and yes, that includes choosing to participate in a caffeine addiction🙂. It also includes gratitude journaling, meditating, stretching, writing, and connecting with myself. This reminds me why I chose to start waking up earlier…to have the time to start my day in self-care so that I choose me first and don’t make you responsible for my attitude, my lack of sleep, my circumstances.
I can choose to remain a victim to last night and allow it to continue victimizing my day and this moment. Or I can choose to find joy, grace and happiness right here.
I can choose to be grateful that I was gifted a restless night of sleep, in a safe home and a comfortable bed, with love surrounding me, and the universe supporting me.
Thankfully today, I choose the latter. I fully understand that I am responsible to choose to BE my best self. “My Free Will” gives me that choice. Your Free Will gives you the same.
And then tonight, I’ll sleep like a baby (You hear me, Universe?!?) and be curious about what tomorrow will bring. I’ll attempt to be Pope Francis-like and, “await the surprise of each new day.”
Thanks for being you…Peace friend ✌️🙂
- How do you get yourself out of a funk when it appears? How do you shift? Do you find that you get wrapped up in mis-directed anger toward others? Or do you find connection within for self-responsibility? How does your funk typically play out?
Feel free to answer or ponder those questions. And, if you’d like to jump into some coaching about you, your heart, or your free-will, feel free to check out the link here.